7 days of Prayer and Fasting

This is our yearly 7 days fasting that we do to start the new year by seeking God. I missed the first day of fasting. Today is the last day.... I am very happy that God spoke to me about certain things in my life and what I should do this year. I just want to learn to put my eyes on the Lord and rely on Him just like what Ps. Tim said. This year is going to be different! I am declaring it!!!
There was a lot of things I ask for or to say that my flesh is yearning for.
1. Is to get a car cos it is very hard for me to travel around KL without a car. got dance classes, church meetings and also church service to attend. Then later part of this year need to move to Uni Malaya and transport is also another problem.
2. New computer as this computer is lagging so much.
Ya... and the list can go on and on but there was one day where I was literally crying out to God to please lessen my burden a bit and lessen my so-called sufferings. Then this poem came to mind. [PS: I am sorry i forgot where I got this poem from. I apologized to the author beforehand k]

Wait...My Child

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait!"

"Wait?, you say, wait!" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By faith I have asked, and am claiming Your Word."

"My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and You tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign."

"And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, as we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed then to kneel and His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.
All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want...but, you wouldn't know Me."

"You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;
You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence were all you could see."

"You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save ... (for a start),
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart."

The flow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have last."

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that 'My grace is sufficient for thee.'
Your dreams for your loved ones overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss! if I lost what I'm doing in you!"

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me
And though oft may My answers seem terribly late,
My wisest of answers is still but to wait"

["You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that 'My grace is sufficient for thee.']
This two lines just struck me. Yes, LORD if the pain just go away I will never know how muc grace You had poured in my life.

Then this song came too as I was thanking God for all He done for me.
This song is by Chris Tomlin entitled: How can I keep

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Saviour lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

Ya.. So after that I just don't really feel like complaining anymore. Life is more than just complaining. It is about how you live it.....