Hahaha.... the TIME has come finally. As i am blogging now, all my housemates except my indian roomate has left to went home already.... As i am writng i kinda regret not to opt to go back by bus earlier rather than wait to travel home with my uncle. Ya.. I know ppl will say that it is better to travel by car yet the situation I am in is that i have to wait until tommorow only I would be able to see my dearest family....
*sidetrack a bit... I would like to thanked God for providing a better job (a better pay) for my eldest brother. I was too busy to blog about it so i thought i would just like to slot it in b4 i forget again. He got retrenched because he was in the company for a year plus NOT BECAUSE HE IS NOT CAPABLE!!!!!! He has the best results among us siblings and he loves and takes care of us. (SO HE DIDN'T TELL ME HE GOT RETRENCHED!!! i know it may not be a proudful thing to talked about but I guess i wasn't happy bcos it felt like i am being kept in the dark about all these things. I guess it is in the family that everyone doesn't share freeeeeely.... So Why am I the ODD one out? I don't know, i guess I am influenced by certain ppl or I just like to pour myself out not in front of the ppl but in the blog. (Though lots of research proved that it might be influenced our communication skills but BLOGGING is still a very nice way to express oneself.
Jumping to another topic... I finally met one of my National Service friend yesterday... I was very happy yet very shocked to see how she had changed. After the conversation with her I realised that life can really changed a person. Not to say it is bad but i guess life has a way of slamming the reality of life at us. The reality that things in this world is never free and how money is the first thing that comes to mind when a conversation starts and how everything is about MONEY, MONEY, MONEY! (Reminds me of the mamma mia movie.) But I just hope for the best for her and pray that she will find the right pupose for her life and live for that prupose.
Ah........ I side track and jump to other topics already..... Anyway i am really looking forward to going back home although Chinese New Year didn't seemed to be so celebrative this year. But I missed my family a lot and looked forward to meeting my high school friends too... I just pray that I will not gained too much weight.[Have to control hard]

7 days of Prayer and Fasting

Posted by Doreen | 11:42 PM | 1 comments »

This is our yearly 7 days fasting that we do to start the new year by seeking God. I missed the first day of fasting. Today is the last day.... I am very happy that God spoke to me about certain things in my life and what I should do this year. I just want to learn to put my eyes on the Lord and rely on Him just like what Ps. Tim said. This year is going to be different! I am declaring it!!!
There was a lot of things I ask for or to say that my flesh is yearning for.
1. Is to get a car cos it is very hard for me to travel around KL without a car. got dance classes, church meetings and also church service to attend. Then later part of this year need to move to Uni Malaya and transport is also another problem.
2. New computer as this computer is lagging so much.
Ya... and the list can go on and on but there was one day where I was literally crying out to God to please lessen my burden a bit and lessen my so-called sufferings. Then this poem came to mind. [PS: I am sorry i forgot where I got this poem from. I apologized to the author beforehand k]

Wait...My Child

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait!"

"Wait?, you say, wait!" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By faith I have asked, and am claiming Your Word."

"My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and You tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign."

"And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, as we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed then to kneel and His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.
All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want...but, you wouldn't know Me."

"You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;
You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence were all you could see."

"You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save ... (for a start),
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart."

The flow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have last."

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that 'My grace is sufficient for thee.'
Your dreams for your loved ones overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss! if I lost what I'm doing in you!"

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me
And though oft may My answers seem terribly late,
My wisest of answers is still but to wait"

["You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that 'My grace is sufficient for thee.']
This two lines just struck me. Yes, LORD if the pain just go away I will never know how muc grace You had poured in my life.

Then this song came too as I was thanking God for all He done for me.
This song is by Chris Tomlin entitled: How can I keep

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Saviour lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

Ya.. So after that I just don't really feel like complaining anymore. Life is more than just complaining. It is about how you live it.....

Is it lawful for me then?

Posted by Doreen | 11:08 PM | | 0 comments »

haha.. Deprived of blogging for quite some time so am going to post what God had spoke to me at the start of this new year.

I was reading my bible that day and I came across this verse:
1 Corinthians 10:23 All things are lawful for me but not all things are not helpful;
All things are lawful for me but all things do not edify.
I felt God spoke to me about me turning 21 last year. Lots of my friends said kind of the same thing when they heard that I turned 21. 'Let's go to pubs!' This is the most common response i get. (Imagine the things you can do.... Get marry without needing your parents' consent[i think-if i am wrong,correct me] -Go to pubs and not get caught. and much more...)

I guess as i was meditating on His words, He is trying to tell me all things may be lawful for me now as I turned 21 but not all things are helpful, neither does all things edify me. So I am reminded again of a quote by someone called Albert Camus.

So although it is lawful for me but whatever choices i make will influence my whole life. God is also saying to me that He wants to be involve in my decision-making. I guess 2008 had been a year where most of the time it was about me but 2009 will be a year where it is all about HIM and He is going to be the decision maker in my life.

I was browsing through my pictures and saw a few pictures of my cousins. This is my little cousin... Ain't he cute... He is a great poser. I remember taking lots of his pictures where he was posing like a professional model but i can't seemed to find the other pictures.

This is the sister of the lil cousin brother. My cute lil girl cousin who looks like Ella from S.H.E(a girl group from Taiwan in case u dont know) The thing is she loves to sing and dance.... May be the next Ella.( Just as long she is not too tom boyish) Very cheeky girl she is.

This is one dear grandmother that i loved a lot. I am her first girl grand-daughter so just imagine how much she pampered me since I was young. She and I have the same chinese birth date. She is seventy plus already yet she is taking care of my two little cousins. I am praying hard for her salvation.... (LOVED HER TOO MUCH TO WANT HER RECEIVE THE GIFT THAT I WAS FREELY GIVEN)


I used hours trying to figure out how i can change the blog skins.... In the end, it was all to nothing.... Kinda missed the friendster blog now cos i really loved the cool skins....
[PS: If anyone who knows how to do it please teach me how....]

But one thing about blogspot is that it is running fast...

ah... New Year.. New Blog...

Posted by Doreen | 10:16 PM | | 3 comments »

=) It is a start of a new year.... Only have time to start another new blog. Reason is I am sick of Friendster's blog.( NO offence ya to those who are still using Friendster's blog) So this is going to be the blog I am going to use from now. But if u are interested to read what i had written for the past two years, you can go this link and check it out.  

So life had gone back on track with new semester and new schedule. And new blog means new commitment.... Haiz... (more work) but i love to drop by and blog when something great or not so great is happening in my life. So this is the place where u will get to know more about me!!!